Never to reconcile

My mom died on September 22, 2000 from breast cancer. Her death was not the end of the emotional roller-coaster that was our relationship. She died, and I was left never having had the ability to really understand her from her perspective. In times prior, after I became an adult, I tried to ask my mom why she didn't want me, but never got an answer. So, as I stood over her coffin, looking down on the one person in the world who's love and acceptance I craved more than any thing in this world, I knew I would never have it. She had always been lost to me, but now she was lost to me forever. Read More....